Happy Valentine's Day Lisa

Bagatelle in A minor
(Fur Elise)
Ludwig van Beethoven

arr: bill
performed by:
the music room quintet


For Lisa...

you are the best thing that has ever come into my life...

(except for Jesus)

William

Oxygen

For a season I kept an audio journal - one composition per day...

Janet's post and a recent email from Lynne reminded me of these soundfiles from that season, a time when I was very familiar with mixing respirator medicine, the effects of chemotherapy, morphine pumps, thrush, and oxygen tanks.

Donna's oxygen tanks rang so clearly, and were a constant presence during this season. You can hear them in each of these.

The images were from around the same time as the audio journal entries.

December 24, 2003
Breath Prayer




January 24, 2004
Oxygen





January 25, 2004
Admission

Dig

Here's some lyrics I wrote...

Dig

I dug below the frostline but I couldn't find the clues
and I dug for buried treasure just so I could pay my dues
now I'm digging through this catalogue for something I can use

but I still

can't bury the pain



I've been digging in the garbage, I've been digging in the dust
I brushed away the broken glass and dusted off the rust
I've been digging like I cared and I'm digging 'cause I must

but I still

can't bury the pain



Artifacts
Tombs
Fossils
Bones
Links
in the chain

and the pain


I once dug a foundation where I thought I'd like to stay
then I had to dig a tunnel just so I could get away
now I'm living in this trench so I can fight another day

and I still

can't bury the pain



Artifacts
Tombs
Fossils
Bones
Links
in the chain...

"To Do Today"

Proverbs 13:12 - Hope deferred makes the heart sick…

Tick... The lawn needs mowing
Tock... The car needs an oil change

Tick... There are ants on the carpet
Tock... There is rot in the deck

Tick... The porch is sagging
Tock... The roof is 20 years old

Tick... The windows are open and it might rain
Tock... The bills are due

Tick... There won’t be enough
Tock... I weigh too much

Tick... I’m tired
Tock... death


Talk? The lawn needed mowing

Listen? The car needed attention

Care? There were ants in the carpet

Accept? There was rot in the deck

Share? The porch was sagging

Grow? The roof needed attention

Respect? There was a chance of rain

Live? The bills were due

Love? I was afraid there wouldn’t be enough

Trust? I was unhappy with myself

Give? I was tired

Hope? died